Showing posts with label suffering. Show all posts
Showing posts with label suffering. Show all posts

Monday, March 13, 2017

Wish

I wish for peace and happiness,
For safety's hug and hope's caress.
I wish for fast and full relief
From aches, abuse, and suffering.
I wish for strength and well-being,
To live in kindness that endures.
For grit and grace in times of grief,
Freedom that heals and love that cures.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Compassion

Compassion is not time
that passes without looking back
Or confused air
once a breeze and then the storm
It pours
not as water that freezes in the cold
It's not the sun when concealed
by darkness of a mindless cloud
Compassion does not cower
like fire in the downpour
Is not seduced by alluring words
Will not crumble beneath untold
unfelt sufferings of the world
Compassion can never be known
but from the experience of breath
through the revived reborn field
of heart that softly beats—
despite the ravages of time
howls of dolor
despite springs of agony still unhealed
and shattered memories that keep order
as fearful guards blocking the roads
despite the snoring snow-covered wolves
and homeless feelings running for cover—
having felt an openness and softened care
as if the city of heart is much much bigger
as if it's a room that welcomes and can hold
that and the breath and has room to shed a tear
as if the heart is vaster and warmer and wiser
beneath the damage and the falling snow
as if the heart is patient enough to wait
for blossoming spring and fruits of summer
But these are only words! 
Who could really know
why this time the breath had beamed with joy
returning all content
up to the mind from there

Friday, February 26, 2016

Centillion Ways to Die

Hospital, hospice, laid in bed,
On freezing streets, in fancy rooms.
In timeless spaces, sunless skies,
Cubicles, prison cells...and tombs. 
In front of judges, parents, kids,
Audience—friend or strange—their eyes
Still staring from behind the lids
That speak the feelings left unsaid. 
With prayers, with grating cries, with sighs.
Unseen, unknown; unloved, unwed....
By force or will, with guns.  In wombs
Of girls whose souls have parted too.
Kisses on cheeks and pale foreheads,
Holding of hands, and swallowed tears,
With lonely aches and greedy fears.
Mystery, grief...then peace one year,
as pain searches, with wings unspread,
for warm and kind suffering peers
to help release the inner dead.

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

The Emergency Waiting Room

The walls contained a rainbow of brochures, rife 
with photos—peaceful faces, gladly sick.
And sadder, breathing though, the waiting room
contained: abused and injured, worried-wells,
the homesick, lovesick—handful very sick.  
We formed a true ensemble (though bit off),
our moans and coughs, concocting many tunes. 

As arctic poppies turn to sun and light,
our eyes pursued the coats of lustrous white.  
Our ears, like arid soil before the rain,
attuned to rhythms—every uttered name. 
Our tongues so keen to free the muted pains 
that ravage us (like mildew spread on bloom).

The doctors, nurses, come and go, as though 
we're just a senseless garden, sleeping, rows
of drooping tulips, shriveled aloes, scorched
forget-me-nots (below fluorescent lights).
Or weeping willows, bleeding hearts, instead: 
a "bleeding man", and not a "man" who's "bled." 

And then, as phones of ivory snored and bounced, 
and starvers tango-danced the Coke machines, 
while drunkards raised the standards of obscene,
I heard my name—misread but still—pronounced.  
And after hours of wait: So sweet to hear! 

My savior stood—a gardener—scanning fast, 
horizons of our field of yellowed grass.
A prophet—he—my rock; my healer; hope; 
he threw across and down my well a rope, 
to plant me in a vase, my own, at last, 
to make me human newly—healed and whole. 

My leaves uncoiled, my petals straightened out,
I turned to him, towards his light, his sound— 
a myth (though other foot was on the ground). 
He signed towards the circus, yes, the clown: 
No longer was there doubt, I'd seen his eyes 
alight on me: All hail the chosen one!

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

The eighteen-wheeler speeding 'round the curve

The eighteen-wheeler speeding 'round the curve....
eleven hundred weeks—before me—flashed:  
the doctors, nurses, students, staff, the rooms, 
and soon, the judge and jury, lawyers—theirs 
and ours—harangues on mercy, blame; intent 
and chance, revenge and justice....Time we spent
rewording and remaking life: I'm numb
with dolor, fury, horror, guilt, and shame; 
the runes of woe, my daily torture, now
tattooed inside my wasting folds of flesh. 
Emotions cling, unsaid, unnamed—preserved  
inside my jaw and limbs, my blood and bones,
the meanings lost, just piles of words and words.  

The eighteen-wheeler speeding 'round the curve—
and for a moment going o'er the curb—
now swerved about the purple traffic cones  
(thus marking borders of my tortured nerves).